my relationship with words

     My relationships with words are not that great. Because I have trouble pronouncing words. How I felt about words is kind of ironic that I am writing a blog about words. Words make me feel frustrated, unsure, and confused. And yet here I am writing a blog about them. My own usage of words. I have to tell you, that I had to choose between having a conversation with someone or making a post on Facebook I would choose Facebook. It’s because it gives me more time to think my thoughts and what I am going to say. No one can interrupt me in the middle of my post. Consider the good and the bad. When have words failed me. Some of the time I don’t know what some words mean.  And even worse I may not know how to use a word the right way.  It is not only hard when I am speaking but also when I am listening to others.  I guess for me words are a necessary evil.  I have to use them but they can make me uncomfortable. What made me proud of words is when people recognize my accomplishments by saying things like “good job” or “way to go” that always makes me feel proud.  When I received my letter from the Texas A&M PATHS program telling me that I had been accepted I felt fantastic.  Those words really meant a lot to me. When words hurt me. Well really words don’t hurt me but they hurt my feelings.  In high school there were some very unkind people who would say curse words and mean things to me.  My word for them would be bully. While their words hurt my feelings I worked my best to ignore them.

       The times that I think of most when I have used words to the benefit of someone else is my words of encouragement for my family.  I always tell my sister how proud I am of her and what she is doing in California.  But just between you and me, I am a little jealous that I am not living in California myself. What I want words to do for me is to make me feel like I am a better person. Words that inspired me greatly was when my dad always says to me “You’re a good man Gunga Din!”  or “you’re the man, you’re the man with the Midas touch!” While those words might seem silly to others, to me I feel happy.  I know my dad really feels like I am a good man. One artist that blew my heart away with words is actually a coach from one of my favorite movies in “We Are Marshall”.  I love the line that Jack Lengyel says to his team:  “When you take that field today, you’ve got to lay that heart on the line, men.” To me those words mean that a person needs to do their best to achieve their goal.